Day 8 — One Mind, One Goal

“A double minded man is unstable in all his ways.”

— James 1:8

I started listening to a book about alcohol. I needed to, because my relationship with drinking isn’t good at all. Every time I drink, I run amok — I lose control, and I don’t like who I become.

It’s like alcohol flips a switch inside me. When I drink, I feel like I have to go all out — to be wild, sinful, reckless — just to feel something, just to find some kind of relief. But that relief never lasts. The next day I feel worse: more stressed, more ashamed, less healthy, less alive.

What really caught my attention in the book was something called cognitive dissonance — that inner conflict between what I believe and what I do. And I realized that this isn’t just about alcohol. It’s everywhere.

Porn creates it. Masturbation creates it. Even certain social habits, fast food, and phone use create it.

That inner conflict is what drains me. It’s why my art feels blocked. It’s why my relationships feel off. It’s why I can’t find peace even in good moments — because inside me, there’s always noise, always tension between two selves fighting for control.

Now that I finally understand what it is, I know what I need to do:

To become one mind, with one goal, and one truth.

To live in alignment — not perfection, but unity.

That’s my focus now. No more divided energy. No more self-betrayal.

Just one clear path forward