Day 1 — Again

“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”

— Psalm 73:26

Day one again.

I’ve failed again.

Ten years of trying, and I still find myself trapped in the same cycle — temptation, surrender, regret, recovery. It’s exhausting. It’s heartbreaking.

I’ve lost relationships, opportunities, friendships — even parts of myself — to this habit. Each failure chips away at something, and yet I still rise to try again.

But I believe something deep: I’m standing on the frontier of human growth. This battle against digital temptation — this fight between pleasure and peace — it’s something millions face but few truly confront. I’m in that war.

What makes it so hard is not just resisting temptation — it’s having to resist it every single day.

Why do we have to fight temptation at all?

Why can’t we just be free from it?

That’s what I want: freedom. Real, lasting, inner freedom.

This time, I’m going to accomplish it — not just for myself, but for everyone who’s trying. For everyone who’s tired of falling, of being ruled by something smaller than their soul.

And when I reach those milestones — 30 days, 60 days, 90 days — I will appreciate them deeply. I won’t take them for granted. Nothing and no one will take that away from me.

Day one.

But not the same as before.

This one begins with purpose